I have never been a great decision maker, I mean sure give me two restaurants to eat at and I will pick quickly, but when it comes to the big decisions of life...I don't like making them. I feel sick to my stomach thinking of going either direction that is at hand, I do not sharing this as it shows my lack of faith in God directing my steps, but today this is how I feel. How do you choose the correct path for your life and how do you walk in confidence in the path God has laid out? Often times it is easier for my heart to trust God on the big things like eternity, but I struggle with the daily the stuff. Why is my heart like this? Why do I struggle that God's plan is actually the best for my life? Am I that much of a control freak? God I really do want your will in my life...please show me Your heart so I can follow You.

I was reminding of this song by
Barlow Girl called Surrender


My hands hold safely to my dreams
Clutching tightly not one has fallen
So many years I've shaped each one
Reflecting my heart showing who I am

Now you're asking me to show
What I'm holding oh so tightly
Can't open my hands can't let go
Does it matter? Should I show you?
Can't you let me go?

Surrender, surrender you whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can't you see?
My dreams are me. My dreams are me

You say you have a plan for me
And that you want the best for my life
Told me the world had yet to see
What you can do with one
That's committed to Your calling

I know of course what I should do
That I can't hold these dreams forever
If I give them now to You
Will You take them away forever?
Or can I dream again?